This time last year was different.
I was heart broken and was crying the entire day. Thing is I was left by the person who promised me that he’d stay. My heart was broken into pieces to the point where I felt I was crippled and unable to feel anymore. My mind was clouded with thoughts that I can’t get through it without him. I know, I may be overreacting, but that’s what I felt that time. Days and months have passed, and it felt like nothing is getting any better. There will be times when I would randomly cry in bed, at the bathroom, sometimes from the moment I wake up, or even before I go to sleep, just so I can release all the pain that’s been accumulating in me. My 2018 haven’t been easy, it was damn hard. I should say that I’ve hit rock bottom last year.
A year have passed, and I can see that there had been a lot of changes. Yes, I am still healing and still trying my best to accept the things I cannot change. Of course with the help of my family and friends. They have been supporting me from day one up to now and I can’t thank them enough for the advices and constant reminder of my own worth.
I know how hard it is to move on. You let go and give up the person you truly love. But I know that this is a process and I can’t just simply rush it. Sometimes he still manages to creep inside my head and that’s okay. I hope he’s doing good. I want him to be happy and live a good life.
And as for me, I cant believe how this year made me. I became a stronger person and I’ve learned a lot from this experience.
One thing is for sure. I now know all the pain and heartaches will be worth it in the future.
